As I was laying in the bathtub tonight, the water filling up around me I was looking at my growing belly wishing it looked like it used to. Wishing my back wasn't hurting, and that I could sleep on my stomach again. I was wishing every time I got on the scales the number wouldn't be higher than the last and thinking about how scared I am of the pain I have to look forward to when it's time for this to be over. Just as I start feeling REALLY sorry for myself I feel you move and suddenly I'm filled with the enormous amount of love I have for you. It reminds me why I am this way and suddenly I just don't care. I start thinking about how excited I am to meet you, to see you. To see if you are really a girl like the doctor said or a boy like the crazy stranger at the theater told me you were! Either one I love you. I want to hold you, I want to wrap you in blankets, I want smother you in kisses, to hold you, bathe you, watch you sleep, I want to know what color your hair is and how much you have. I want to know what your toes look like, I want to hear your cry! I can't wait to dress you up and show you off. I want to read you books, sing songs with you and see your smile and hear your laugh. I'm so excited that you're mine and I want to thank you for reminding me that even though this is really hard it's all going to be worth it in just a short time when I have you in my arms. Thank you baby, I love you more than you will ever know.
Love your mommy!
1 comment:
Its amazing, isn't it??
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